My fallen lightning, its dusklight swelter,
its cataclysm of lanterns & gimlets. I give this to you,
favorite confessor, dressed smartly in your ratty
cardigan. When I’m deep in my cups, I tend
to offer you a ramble of casualty. I sip
down the efforts of alchemy, lay a fiver on the fistfight
throwing together behind my eyes. You, in barswill neon, mouth
dismissal through country ballads & smoke. We have etchings
& pocket knives between us. Lacquered oak & a rag soaked
in bootsmart liquor. When we leave here, we’ll take different
routes down the avenue of crickets & transformers. We won’t
make the mistake of looking back over our shoulder for a humming,
off tune, inaudible. We won’t save ourselves for anything.
We won’t even smell the air.
Every mention of shadewater puts my veins alight—paints the inside
of my pulpit a sickly gold. Like any ritualist, I prefer my systems
to be precisely catalogued. That way, when I attempt to speak
my histories, the lecture hall empties into the interrogation center.
Manacles & ball bearings make for a poor lover, but I find
the weather to be cold enough to foster my campaign, to sequin
the plague I bring to the doorstep . When I attempt to dig my escape routes, please
order my execution for the day after the gala. I’ll announce
my candidacy & greet the assembled horde with penny-thievery
& murmur. The atmosphere, then, will be just ripe
for collapse. Gather the parishioners and their problems
in a little rowboat. The handcuffs have been exquisitely
prepared, shackled to the wound gazebo. When the band
starts playing, I’ll seek out the trombone. I’ll grind accordion
& matchstick the babies. Call the gallery & call
the general. Call the genteel. Call the ghost.